you can't take the firmament from me

Title: That Scary Feeling
Fandom: Bandom (Panic! at the Disco)
Rating: NC-17.
Length: ~1100 words.
Characters/Pairings: Brendon, with Ryan and Spencer.
Disclaimer: I'm going to go with "me playing with fictional dolls in my head" again. (My Barbie adventures as a kid were possibly more out-there, believe it or not.)

Content notes: (skip) Contains a character mulling (non-graphically) what might happen if he had to get his arm amputated. Also, Brendon doesn't do any research on circulation, so this probably isn't something you should try without reading up on it first.

Summary: Still, getting off on his arm falling asleep? At least anal was something people talked about.

Notes: Written for the wildcard space on my kink_bingo card. (I went with the "bodies/body parts" kink.) It's based on a tweet (screencap) from Brendon that reads: "I may be the only sick bastard that loves that scary feeling when you wake up and can't feel your arm because you slept on it all night." This was where my brain went.

Also on AO3 and LJ.

( That Scary Feeling )

Title: Romance
Fandom: Bandom (My Chemical Romance)
Rating: PG-13.
Length: ~1745 words.
Characters/Pairings: Ray/Gerard, background Frank/Mikey.
Disclaimer: So not real, so not meant for anyone famous, so not anything but me playing with fictional dolls in my head.

Content notes: (skip) Combination alcohol/drug use.

Summary: In which Gerard fails and somehow still ends up in love anyway.

Notes: Also on AO3 and LJ.

( Romance )

Title: The High Place
Fandom: Bandom: Panic! at the Disco (with background MCR, FOB, and Cobra Starship)
Rating: R
Length: 12,150 words.
Characters/Pairings: Brendon/Spencer (with background Frank/Mikey and Ray/Gerard)

Content notes (skip) Past rape/abuse briefly discussed (not between any romantic pairing), violence, drug use similar to pot (with liberties taken)

Summary: Even after the battle that destroyed the local branch of Manticore, Seattle was much kinder to Brendon than the secret military organization that created him and his friends. Could his newfound freedom lead to something as awesome as love? (Dark Angel AU)

Author's notes: Also on AO3 and LJ.

For bandombigbang 2012, Wave Three. This story mostly stands alone, but if you're not familiar with Dark Angel, it will definitely help to read Crash first. I also played fast and loose with the accuracy of the drug use in this story, but this is about cat people in the future and is based on people who play in bands, so I hope the whole thing is taken as what it is: fiction.

Thanks to andeincascade for the absolutely stellar beta job (and putting up with my anxious emails), rahnekat for the Dark Angel DVD loan, my younger sister for gifting me her DVD set, and my mom for listening to my brainstorming and laughing at the title when I told her about it. (I come by it honestly.)

Bonus Tracks/Enhanced Content

Fanart:
Three pieces by quintenttsy

Fanmix:
The High Place by fluffysnow

( The High Place )

Title: Short Story
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: PG.
Length: About 700 words.
Characters/Pairings: Sam, Chuck.

Summary: Sam doesn't have the comfort of knowing it's not over. But nothing really ends.

Notes: Also on AO3 and LJ.

( Short Story )

July 2012

Fic

"Hand Covers Bruise" (AO3 | DW | LJ)
Bandom (Panic!), NC-17, 3160 words, Ryan/Spencer, for bandom_meme
Spencer doesn't like hockey. The way hockey bruises Ryan's skin, on the other hand...

"Breathing Room" (AO3 | DW | LJ)
Bandom (MCR), PG, 1080 words, Mikey/Frank, for kink_bingo
Sometimes, on bad days, all Mikey needs is to be held.

( Podfic (recorded by others). )

( Other posts. )

August 2012 and beyond

A quick announcement outside the cut: I'm posting recs for crack_van in the month of August! I've already posted my first, but I'll make sure to link all of them in the next month's digest.

( The rest of the news. )

Title: Hand Covers Bruise
Fandom: Bandom (Panic! at the Disco)
Rating: NC-17.
Length: About 3160 words.
Characters/Pairings: Ryan/Spencer.
Disclaimer: Fictional, don't cross the streams, etc.

Summary: Spencer doesn't like hockey. The way hockey bruises Ryan's skin, on the other hand...

Notes: Written for this prompt on bandom_meme. Ryan and Spencer's ages aren't specified in the story, but while they're in high school, I pictured Ryan as a senior and Spencer as a junior, so above the age of consent in Nevada.

Also on AO3 and LJ.

( Hand Covers Bruise )

June 2012

Fic

Werewolf Big Bang

"Strays" (AO3 | DW | LJ)
Bandom (MCR), NC-17, about 14,500 words, Frank/Gerard
Frank and Gerard's life off-tour is all about grocery shopping and blowjobs and general domestic happiness...until Gerard goes missing, and bloody scraps are all that's left behind. So when a stray dog turns up on Frank's doorstep, can anyone blame him for wanting a little normal back in his life?

Supernatural/J2 Big Bang

"More than the dirt it takes to bury them" (AO3 | DW | LJ)
Supernatural, NC-17, 24,000 words, Sam/Dean
Sam Wesson doesn't usually run off with strangers to fight what lurks in the dark. But then, Sam doesn't meet people he dreams about - people like Dean Smith - every day. It's not perfect, but he's making a difference and getting closer to Dean, so what's not to love?

Except the dreams he still can't explain. And the way he's starting to sweat and shake and itch for something he can't name. Something like demon blood.

bandom_meme and other bandom stories

"Woke up in Vegas as a werewolf again" (AO3 | DW | LJ)
Bandom (FOB/related), G, 2600 words, with Pete and a bunch of others
""Werewolves," Patrick said, patting Pete's arms like he wanted to make sure he was real. "Only you, man.""

Three times Pete was a werewolf in Las Vegas.

"shadows and sunlight" (AO3 | DW | LJ)
Bandom (MCR/Midtown), R, 1000 words, Gabe/Gerard, for bandom_meme
Gabe could almost see light trying to escape from Gerard's skin, like some magic that wouldn't stay contained.

"your team sux" (AO3 | DW | LJ)
Bandom (MCR/Panic!), NC-17, 1700 words, Mikey/Ryan, for bandom_meme
Mikey stumbles into Ryan at the Stanley Cup game. Literally.

Avengers stories

"Nick Fury doesn't make mistakes" (AO3 | DW | LJ)
NC-17, 2300 words, Nick Fury/Rhodey
Nick Fury doesn't make mistakes. Even when he goes to Stark Tower with a bottle of whiskey in the middle of the night.

"And it feels so good" (AO3 | DW | LJ)
G, 720 words, Steve/Bucky
"I like the future already." In which Steve and Bucky reunite.

( Community-related notes. )

( July 2012 and beyond. )

Title: More than the dirt it takes to bury them
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: NC-17
Length: About 24,000 words.
Characters/Pairings: Sam/Dean, other ensemble characters.

Content notes: (skip) Includes addiction/withdrawal scenarios, some alcohol abuse, and sexual situations involving siblings who don't know they're related. There's also some canon-appropriate violence (and nothing to the extreme that the show ever reaches).

Summary: Sam Wesson doesn't usually run off with strangers to fight what lurks in the dark. But then, Sam doesn't meet people he dreams about - people like Dean Smith - every day. It's not perfect, but he's making a difference and getting closer to Dean, so what's not to love?

Except the dreams he still can't explain. And the way he's starting to sweat and shake and itch for something he can't name. Something like demon blood. (For spn_j2_bigbang 2012.)

Also available on: AO3 | LJ
Non-AO3 downloads: mobi | epub | PDF

(Note: the story and the ebooks were edited 6/23/12 to fix a mild canon error.)

Art post

Master post - quayle

( Author's notes. )

( More than the dirt it takes to bury them )

Title: shadows and sunlight
Fandom: Bandom (MCR and Midtown)
Rating: R.
Length: About 1000 words.
Characters/Pairings: Gabe/Gerard, Mikey.
Disclaimer: I'm like the Sorkin to bandom's Social Network, minus the witty dialogue.

Content notes: (skip) Involves alcohol abuse and allusions to suicide/suicidal thinking.

Summary: Gabe could almost see light trying to escape from Gerard's skin, like some magic that wouldn't stay contained.

Notes: Originally posted on bandom_meme here. Also on AO3 and LJ.

( shadows and sunlight )

Title: Strays
Fandom: Bandom (My Chemical Romance)
Rating: NC-17
Length: About 14,500 words.
Characters/Pairings: Frank/Gerard, Mikey, Ray.
Disclaimer: Unless I've become a psychic who sees into the lives of magical musicians, this is nothing but fiction.

Content notes: (skip) Involves grief inspired by a main character thought to be dead, animal cruelty at the hands of minors, vague violence and gore, somewhat explicit sex.

Summary: Frank and Gerard's life off-tour is all about grocery shopping and blowjobs and general domestic happiness...until Gerard goes missing, and bloody scraps are all that's left behind. So when a stray dog turns up on Frank's doorstep, can anyone blame him for wanting a little normal back in his life? (For werewolfbigbang 2012.)

Also available on: AO3 | LJ
Non-AO3 downloads: mobi | epub | PDF

Fanmix

Master post - wtfbrain

( Author's notes. )

( Strays )

Title: Woke up in Vegas as a werewolf again
Fandom: Bandom (Fall Out Boy/Black Cards with background MCR, Panic!, and Cobra)
Rating: G.
Length: About 2550 words.
Characters/Pairings: Pete Wentz and ensemble
Disclaimer: Still completely fictional.

Summary:

"Werewolves," Patrick said, patting Pete's arms like he wanted to make sure he was real. "Only you, man."

Three times Pete was a werewolf in Las Vegas.

Notes: Pete gives great material to work with. If inlovewithnight likes this story, it's a belated birthday present. Officially, this time.

(Also on AO3 and LJ.)

( Woke up in Vegas as a werewolf again )

Title: Because I got enough to spare
Fandom: Twilight
Rating: NC-17.
Length: About 2600 words.
Characters/Pairings: Primarily Edward/Jacob. But also ( cut for length. )
Content notes: (skip) Contains a pre-negotiated fantasy with D/s elements and slut-shaming slurs. More specific notes on what the fic contains can be read in the AO3 post's tags.

Summary: Still up for this, popsicle? Or: the Edward Gets Gangbanged by Werewolves fic.

Notes: Written for this prompt for kink_bingo's May 2012 mini-challenge. I played a little fast and loose with the Twilight vampire/werewolf worldbuilding and set it in an AU version of the universe's future for logistical purposes. (Yay creative license!) The title comes from My Chemical Romance's House of Wolves.

(Also on AO3 and LJ.)

( Because I got enough to spare )